Got an xray steroid injection done in my right ankle today. The numbing had starting to wear off like an hour or two ago. It keeps hurting like a bitch. I want cuddles.  :c.  Hurts to walk. Feel nauseous, guess I’ll just sleep the day away or something. 

Idk

Basically, our relationship isn't "worth trying" for, according to the bf. I could've guessed that's how he felt, but it hurt to hear it. I'm still not sure how to feel about it, other than "obviously it's not going anywhere and we're gonna break up", it's just a matter of time when. I don't really think that we're compatible anymore, just lots of downs, so many downs that the ups are hard to really make worth the time. I feel sad. I want to cry half the time and I don't even know why, I'm just sad. Sad that it didn't work out. Sad that we can't make it work. Sad that I'm still being treated like I'm not worth anything and that I'm "nothing special". Sad that I'm just not really being treated how I would love to be treated. 

I don't want to die. I just want to curl up and not have to deal with people. 

I'm sitting here thinking of what to write to express myself, and it's just..... blank. Nothing really comes to mind, just that I hate how everything is. I hate the arguing and bickering and constant "why are you doing this/that", "why are you talking to so and so", "you can't do this/that right". Tired of not being able to even find something to play together because I'm apparently "trash" at everything and it's SUCH a TORTURE to play with me. 

...Idk.