Lost

I don't know how long it's been.
I've been sleeping really bad. 
I've been eating almost nothing. 
My heart keeps hurting. 

I'm not sure if I even love you, or have loved you recently, or if I'm just so obsessed over the idea of us being together.
Any time I think of going and looking elsewhere, even when we're not together, I feel like shit.
I can't really picture myself with another guy. 
I miss your arms around me. 
I miss the soft kisses. 
I miss waking up next to you. 

This hurts way too much. 

Why were you such a lying scumbag to me....

I may not have been a perfect girlfriend, maybe not even half of one, but I loved you and didn't go behind your back doing shit that you would've called me names for, if I would've done them.