... It didn't even matter.
There's so many thoughts going through my mind right now, as tears stream down my face. I'm not going to reply, because I'm just tired of the fighting. I feel dead inside. Hurt and dead, it's been a while since I felt like this. It's been a while since I couldn't even form everything into something that could be explained. If I had to describe the feeling, it'd be like this.
Just screaming inside your head through tears. Curled up in a ball of hurt and agony. Suffocating as you struggle to gasp what little air you seem to have around you. One thought going through your mind. "Make it stop..." Please make it stop... Make the pain end. Make the feelings disappear. Make it stop... ba bum ba bum ... Shut up.... Stop beating.... Just FUCKING STOP BEATING ALREADY FFS.... Stop.... STOP.... please.... Just this once.... Stop.... I... Am tired.... please... Let it stop hurting.... why....
