I really hate it here. The ONLY reason I'm even trying or bothering is because of my bf but... At this point in time I don't even know if it'll work out or not. I want to believe it will and I'm trying but I'm just so damn tired of it. Been trying to get a job since coming here and he's just been lazy. I'm not sure how it's going to work out at this rate. I don't really have internet and I'm eating and sleeping super shitty.
Honestly, as bad as it sounds.... I'm wondering if it was even worth it. I love him to death but... These living conditions are actually shit and I can truly say I actually really hate it almost to a point where even being together with him, doesn't make anything seem well.
I tried to motivate him multiple times. To get a job so we could get the fuck out, so we could have nice things, so we wouldn't live in a shit hole.... Nothing seems to work. Idk.... Maybe I should just leave and never bother with anyone or anything again. :/
