So.... I'm just done trying. Trying to control myself, trying to be better, trying to care for shit I don't care for and trying to care for the last few things and people I care about. I'm not stopping because I don't love you, I'm stopping because it's just pointless now and there's more negative and depressing shit than there is good. Yes I have issues, but you've known almost all of them for a looong time now. Thanks for pointing them out and blatantly blaming MY issues for shit going wrong all the time. As if I'm already not anxious and stressed enough. Well whatever, you can be "right" now. You can go find someone less bitchy and manipulative and psychotic, as you put it. Just wondering why I even believed anything would come of it or actually work. Silly me.... By know I should have known that's NOT how MY life works.
Everything is spinning, my heart is hurting, I hope it all ends soon.... Really soon.
Mmmr
